Thursday, June 18, 2009

Baby Update

Here is our 8 week ultrasound of our beautiful baby! He/she has a heartbeat of 159 bpm, is growing little hands and a head. So cute!!!

This morning I woke up from what has felt like a very long dream. The last week and a half has been a whirlwind of ups and downs, joys and sorrows. Although bittersweet I feel a sense of relief and peace. I am less anxious and more confident that I can carry my baby to full term.

When I went to the dr. last week because I felt so sick they discovered 3 healthy heartbeats. There was 1 fraternal twins and a set of identical twins that had split from one embryo. We were pregnant with triplets. We called all of our family and close friends to tell them the news. Colin was so excited and I was so scared and anxious because I am a NBICU nurse and I know how high-risk triplets are. Although super anxious and overwhelmed we still loved each baby and wanted them here with all our hearts. And over the last week and a half we began to accept the idea of triplets and begin to feel like we could do this!

Well we went into the dr yesterday to see how our babies were progressing before being transferred over to our high-risk dr. for multiples. First we saw baby A who had a heartbeat, little hand nubs and a head and measured exactly 8 weeks. Then we began to look at baby B who was developed as well as baby A but we could not find a heartbeat. Baby B was measured to 7 weeks and 6 days, one day behind his/her fraternal twin. Then baby C we were not able to see really well at all. The dr. thought there might have been blood in the sac. No one really knows what happened between last week and this week but we lost our identical twins. I have no idea but I think something went wrong with baby C first and it caused baby B distress since baby B was growing and progressing as well as baby A up to one day before our 8 week ultrasound.

Yesterday was a sad day for us, although bittersweet. Even though our identical twins were so tiny they still had heartbeats last week, they were still our babies and we were ready to love them and be their parents. Overwhelmed at the thought of triplets yes, but excited nonetheless. It was also a sense of relief that I would not spend weeks on bed rest, have to stop working at 20 weeks when we really need me to work, spend weeks in the NBICU, etc. No matter what Colin and I know that the Lord has His reasons. We know that the Lord is blessing us through all of this and all will be well. He is in control and we are glad it is that way. We mourn the loss of our identical twins and are so thankful for our beautiful baby A and pray that he/she will not become distressed by the loss of our identical twins, stay strong and stay with us.

We love you all, thank you for your support! This is a journey and we are glad you are along for the ride with us! Thank you!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

I have been really sick these last 2 weeks with nausea, exhaustion, and aches. So on Monday I called my dr. because I thought I might have the flu. He had me come in for some blood work, urine analysis and an ultrasound. Everything checked out fine. The ultrasound revealed everything was healthy and well thus the nausea. He said I was just sick with pregnancy, in few words. He gave me a prescription for Zofran (anti-nausea) which has sort of helped but I am still feeling pretty awful.

I got on the scale this morning and discovered that I have lost 5 lbs since being pregnant, ummm not good. Its just so hard to eat. I am praying that when I get to the 2nd trimester (or before) my nausea will subside and I will be able to enjoy food. I feel like I can deal with being tired but not being able to eat is rough.

The last 3 nights I have woken up in the middle of the night starving but the only thing I can eat is a popsicle. So I get up, eat my popsicle, take a Zofran then go back to bed. Not to mention I still have to work and its been really, really rough working a 12 hour day.

Sorry, not to complain this is just a phase and no matter what Colin and I are thrilled to be pregnant. My question is how have women populated the world? I mean the way I feel right now I never want to be pregnant again. Props to you amazing mothers!

We see our IVF dr one more time next week for one more ultrasound before we are transfered over to the OB.

Friday, June 5, 2009


It kicked in really bad about this time last week. So many smells and foods that I normally love now make me gag. For example, Colin's deodorant, once loved now can't stomach. Slightly burnt popcorn, used to love now am disgusted. The list goes on and on. What is most frustrating is that at the time where my nutrition is essential for the growing babies I don't enjoy food. Me of all people, not enjoy food! It is craziness. I force myself to eat and make sure it counts. Try to get my fruits, veggies, dairy, whole grains and proteins in. I love cottage cheese, for a few bites a least, before I want to chuck the cartoon in the garbage. And I am having loads of cravings. Yesterday for lunch I had a grilled cheese with a heaping side of mashed potatoes and gravy. That actually went down well until I felt sick from it for the rest of the afternoon. The other night I had to have fried rice (normally never want Chinese food). That of course was good too until the sight of it left me with visions of kneeling at the porcelain thrown. The one thing I must say that I have LOVED is ginger ale! Ummm, good! However I limit myself to one glass a day then spend the rest of the day trying to drink double the water to negate the bad effects of soda on my body. To say the least, my definition of nausea has dramatically changed. To all of you with an appetite, eat all the yummies for me! In other news, our first ultrasound is next Wednesday. Update to follow.